Ok so here is the deal end of september early october my dad is going to be having Open Heart sergery. And i will be going to New York to suport him. In case u dont know this is an incredibly dangerus sergery and there is a strong posability he could die in sergery or in recovery(fyi im not better yet but I have been put on the back burner cause his condition is more life thretening.) but if he does not die he will die. I have had alot of people die on me in my life and i pray to god that he wont die cause I dont know what we would do with out him. Dads company is throwing a get better soon party befor he goes and both guys are going 2 be there and I want to just think about my dad and him getting better but I can not help but be nervice for the party and them both being there. I dont know how I going to deal with school and taking care of my father and helping my mother and my job and artchery its going to be a tough 6 months